I am trying to finally lose the baby weight that I put on while carrying Nathan and so far so good. It is coming off slow and steady which is I believe the way to go. The past two weekends however have been a little harder. We have been out and about with date night for our anniversary and this weekend went to visit some friends to catch up. With both go the temptations of sweets, chocolate and larger portion sizes. If I am to make my losing weight and maintaining it a life long thing, which it needs to be - a lifestyle change, then I need to conquor these temptations once and for all.

This is where I find myself in the title of this blog. I am definately an "all or nothing" kind of person. When it comes to eating I cannot just have a little..... well I suppose I could but I choose not to. I have the taste for it and I have to finish the chocolate bar, the ice cream or whatever it may be. This past weekend has been proof of that. Then I get annoyed at myself as what is the point in working out and trying to eat right if I am going to "blow" it by not being able to control my eating myself. I think that it is easier for me to be a "nothing" person and have a treat once per week to keep a handle on my cravings.

Today has been one of those days. Things were not too good today for one reason or another, which usually begins the self sabotage cycle of eating as I am annoyed etc. This was not the case today, I ate as I had the "taste" for the munchies that I was snacking on. Needless to say I am disappointed in myself, and am looking forward to going to gym to take my frustrations out on the treadmill and burn off some of the crap I have munched my way through.

Today is another day - I begin it all again tomorrow, each day is a choice and I will have myself in check with regard to what goes into my body and out of my mouth - verbally!

It's been a long time since I updated on xanga, things have changed, relationships changed and my kids a growing up fast.
      September we went to Liverpool for a 2 week vacation. This is the first flight for Nathan and the first flight that Owen can actually remember and get excited for. The weeks leading up to our trip all I heard was, "Look Mama, Nana's plane!" I had told Owen we were going on a plane to see Nana and Granddad and it became Nana's plane. Owen was so excited to finally get on the plane and considering he was cooped up for 8 hrs in the one seat, he did an awesome job. Nathan was so small it wasn't too big a deal for him. We did have the bulkhead thanks to a friend and so asked for the skycrib. Nate was so long and chubby that he looked like he was squished into it and he could not move or turn over. Needless to say, he spent most of his time sleeping on me - which was more than fine. The trip over there was nice. We had some good days out, it did rain most of the time, but that is English weather for you. It was nice to be able to catch up with some friends although there were some we were unable to. Nathan was baptized, and it was nice to be able to share that with family and friends. Soon enough the trip was over and it was time to return to the U.S. Again this is upsetting for family saying bye mainly to the boys, they change so much and so quickly each time they see them.

     October saw Halloween which we spent with Joel and Jen. The boys and Noah had a great time trick or treating, Nathan as "SuperNate" and Owen as "Buzz Lightyear." I know something else happened this month, but can't remember what it was.
    November was Thanksgiving, which we spent in Columbus with family. Thanksgiving itself we went out to Greenwood Lake, and spent time enjoying company, watching the kids play and catching up with friends. It was a nice weekend all in all.
   December is a busy month for us really. It begins with my birthday which was uneventful but enjoyable - I do look forward to my birthday. 12 days later was Owen's birthday - he turned 3. He is such a big boy and his language is coming along in leaps and bounds. Another 7 days later and it was Nathan's 1st birthday. I don't know where this past year as gone to. He is walking and has been doing so for about a month now. We call him T-Rex as he walks like one. He holds his arms like T-Rex small arms when he walks. We still have the "wooden legs" but it isn't as noticeable as it was originally. Nathan is realizing that he can bend his knees. Nathan has 6 teeth at the moment and we go for his 12 month check up next week. We celebrated Christmas yesterday wit Jon's parents. This was the first year that Owen had an inkling of what was going on. Owen left some cookies and milk for Santa, we forgot poor Rudolph, but will take care of him next year. In the morning when Owen woke, he realized the cookies were gone. When I asked who ate them he whispered, "Santa" and looked straight at the door. I told him that Santa has a magic key to get in our front door as we don't have a chimney for him to come down. I was so excited when he saw all the presents by the tree. Nathan was excited as his brother was. We had the opportunity to use the webcam with my parents Christmas Day so they got to watch the boys open the gifts they got for them. Not the same, but at least it is some interaction with them on Christmas Day.
  Now we start the countdown to New Year's eve which we are spending at a friends. 2010 here we come. Once I upload Christmas pictures I will edit this and place some recent pics in.

It has been a while since I blogged. I guess those that need to know what is going on I talk to and so there was no real reason to blog about it too. Things are going good.

Owen - now 2.5 yrs old - still amazes me! He is doing great and although we have some bouts of terrible 2's, I think sometimes a lot of it is that he is Mr. Independent. He wants to do things himself and that is what causes the issues. His language is exploding which is cool. (While away for the 4th, we were eating breakfast and Jon's brother Joel walked in, to which Owen said, "Morning Sunshine!") Where he gets some of it from I have no idea, but he is always a good source for laughs. A few weeks ago he was watching an episode of Thomas the tank engine - his current favorite, and a brick chimney disappeared down an old mine shaft - it collapsed. Owen responded with "Oh F#*K!" I couldn't believe it! Didn't make a big deal about it, didn't want to draw attention to it. He said it the next day at the sitters, and at this point I am becoming horrified as we don't use that word. A day later he is playing with a duck at the sitters which says "AFLAC!" and he repeated it, but never said aflac, but his version. Problem solved, duck gone! He is wearing underpants at the moment so trying to get him out of diapers and he just went down for a nap without a pacifier, so weaning that a little more actively now. He only uses it for naps and sleep now, but trying to get rid of it period.

Nate is 7 months this month - is a beast! He has no teeth as of yet, but shows signs of teething so it is a matter of time. I think that they will all pop at one time. He crawled his first crawls the other day so is on the move. He is doing very well, but is a big boy, both in width and length. He is such a happy baby - wonderful kid. He is now 19lbs 15 oz and 28 inches long!

Jon is fine, same old same old there. Work is fine for him and he is still doing well there so that is good.

Me, same old same old. Nothing really changes there. 

Looking forward to going to Liverpool in about 6 weeks. Dreading the packing element of it though as that will be a nightmare. It would be good if Owen was potty trained as that is one less thing to take. Luckily mum and dad have quite a bit of stuff we can use, car seats that friends have loaned them etc or they have bought - otherwise it would be a total nightmare! It will be nice to get away though.

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